I was very recently introduced to Lifehouse. I mean, I’m sure I’ve heard them in passing somewhere along the line but a friend sent me a few songs to listen to this week and I liked them. As I’ve said before … I’m a lyric person. I enjoy words. And that is usually what will draw me to a song first, the words, the message, the meaning, the way it makes me feel when I say the words out lout. It’s how I connect with the song and if it is a song I am performing, how I am able to immerse myself into it for my audience.
I have discovered some fantastic (IMHO) words in the songs of Lifehouse. And this song is one of them.
“I’ve lost my balance. I fell from the trapeze. This act isn’t easy. I’ve been under water, the storm has been raging. These nights are not sleeping, my dreams are now strangers to me.”
A lot of what this song is saying really hit home with the year I’ve had.
“I’ve been walking in circles, I’m screaming for answers. I might fall into pieces or maybe I’m finally breaking through.”
So it is my Song of the Week this week. I hope you enjoy it.
This week’s Song Of The Week is an attempt to curtail the Seasonal Affective Disorder that is trying like hell to take over my being.
I adore Barenaked Ladies for their amazing musical talent and their hysterical sense of humor. Their version of Jingle Bells is my favorite of all time. If it doesn’t bring a smile to your face, you are unsaveable. Sorry ’bout your luck.
In what I hope will be a weekly thing, here is a song I love this week. Well, I love this song all of the time, but I’m sharing it this week. Deal with it.
This week’s song is: “Crabbuckit” by k-os
I discovered this song because of video #2 in this post. GQ is one of my favorite female quartets and this song is on their newest album. I got to hear it live last summer before the album was released and have been obsessed with it ever since. There is just something super fun and funky about it and I sing it in my car at least once a day. Minimum.
It isn’t a deep song with any kind of meaningful lyric. Just damn fun to listen to and sing along with. I’m sharing the original by k-os as well as a video of GQ singing it live at a Regional contest.
I know that I’m most likely not getting that quote exactly correct, but the concept is the same, and it the main reason I love music so much. It takes my feelings and my desires and all the things I can’t put into words … and gives them words and life and a way to be expressed. Every now and then a song will come along that will absolutely nail what I’m feeling and that happened to me this week. The best part of it is that this was shared among a small group of friends (more of a gang really) who are just trying to find our corner of happiness in this world. We are there for each other and support each other over the long distances between us. We laugh and vent and cry and just do what we need to do to get to the next day sometimes. But we all share the desire to find our best selves and be the best moms we can be and find our happiest selves.
The song I’m sharing today is “She Used To Be Mine” by Sara Bareilles. She wrote it for the musical “Waitress” which is the story of a waitress in a small town, trapped in a loveless marriage, dreaming of a better life. Can you say #nailedit?
I’m gonna do something I don’t normally do but I feel compelled to do … share all of the lyrics. They speak to me so perfectly right now and I want to share them. To type them out on this screen … letting them live through my fingers … reminding myself that you actually can re-write your ending and find that girl that you knew who was just reckless enough and grew stronger every day and found the fire that used to be in her eyes. At least I hope so. Because I need that girl to come back, with her joy and her fire and her happiness. I know she’s out there and I’ve seen glimpses of her, like a shadow through the trees. So maybe this song can be my call to her to come back and stay. I need her.
It’s not simple to say, most days I don’t recognize me.
That these shoes and this apron, that this place and it’s patrons have taken more than I gave them
It’s not easy to know, I’m not anything like I used to be, although it’s true
I was never attention’s sweet center
I still remember that girl
She’s imperfect, but she tries. She is good, but she lies.
She is hard on herself.
She is broken and won’t ask for help.
She is messy, but she’s kind. She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up in a beautiful pie.
She is gone, but she used to be mine.
It’s not what I asked for.
Sometimes life just slips in through a back door and carves out a person, and makes you believe it’s all true
And now I’ve got you, and you’re not what I asked for
If I’m honest, I know I would give it all back for a chance to start over and rewrite an ending or two, for the girl that I knew
Who’ll be reckless just enough
Who’ll get hurt, but who learns how to toughen up when she’s bruised and gets used by a man who can’t love
And then she’ll get stuck and be scared of the life that’s inside her.
Growing stronger each day ‘til it finally reminds her to fight just a little
To bring back the fire in her eyes that’s been gone but used to be mine.
She’s messy, but she’s kind
She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie
It’s clear to anyone who remotely knows me that I love music. I listen to music pretty much all the time, in some fashion. I usually have at least one earbud stuck in my face at work at any given time, listening to a very wide variety of things.
I use Rhapsody on my phone and have a subscription to that service for myself and the kids. We get unlimited downloads and between the three of us we use the shit out of that service.
At work I use Spotify. I really like it for finding new music. Between the “Artist” or “Song” radio options and the scrolling list of my friends and what they are listening to, there is a never ending stream of new stuff for me to find. And I really dig that.
Yesterday I stumbled upon a group called Hollywood Undead and I’m really enjoying them. They are that nice mix of hip-hop and metal that I really, really like (they popped up on my “We Are Harlot” radio station, which is a new band that was suggested to me by a friend with a million similar tastes, so yay for friends with good taste).
Here’s my current favorite Hollywood Undead song: “Comin’ In Hot” – Enjoy!
Last week was my favorite week of the year: “Harmony Camp Week”. It’s exhausting and exhilarating and stressful and life changing. It is a passion project of mine and I love it with all of my heart.
Harmony Camp is a week-ish long vocal music camp, well really three camps in one, for High School, Middle School, and College aged students. Our main camp, the High School camp, had about 180 kids in attendance this year. Some years we have had upwards of 300 kids. We had about 27 middle school kids this year and 12 or so kids in our college program. In addition to the main camp, we offer two half days of Quartet Coaching, the Monday/Tuesday of camp week. Our camp is specific to the Barbershop Style of a-cappella singing
We have award winning singers and directors on staff and a bunch of volunteers that help as counselors and coaches. I work on the year-round committee that plans the camp and this year I helped organize the quartet coaching day. I also assist with some of the choreography for the high school girls chorus and the middle school chorus.
It is a week of very late nights and early mornings, lots of walking and putting out fires, lots of singing and laughter and even some tears. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
Both of my kids have been campers. My daughter attended 5 years of camp and is now on the counselor staff. My son was at his second camp this year and had a total blast. He sang in a quartet (“Deez Notes”) and they made great strides this year. I was super proud of him.
In addition to multiple rehearsals each day, we have free time and evening activities for the kids each day. We have a
dance one night, and other nights have various activities, ranging from a
scavenger hunt to board games to improv games to Human Foosball. Which is the best invention ever. I love Human Foosball.
I spend the week with 200+ kids who love to sing and an amazing staff of my friends. We have an absolute blast, get zero sleep, eat dorm food, and have ice cream with every very meal. We change lives every year and it never, ever gets old.
In a world full of division and hate and animosity, Harmony Camp is a place of acceptance and love and … well … Harmony. It’s a place where kids who love to sing and may be a jock or a nerd or the smartest person in their school … but all we care about is what part they sing and if they know the same songs as we do, so we can sing
together. It is the most beautiful place and I am honored and privileged to be a part of it. Already counting the days to #HCamp17.
I’ve mentioned countless times on various platforms that music is very important in my life and in particular, the lyric. I am a lover of words and a good lyric can cut right into your soul and speak directly to the very emotion that you are either trying to embrace or attempting to ignore. A good lyric can shake you to your core.
“They don’t know where we’ve been. We got that concrete street skin.”
A song speaking to me these days is “State of My Head” by Shinedown.
“Yeah, I’m full of deep cuts right down to the marrow, but there’s no doubt we’ll get out from the bottom of the barrel.”
It speaks to digging in when things are shitty and pushing through. It speaks to not giving up because the ultimate reward waits at the end of the battle. It speaks to being strong when others would not.
“Oh, our flag is tattered and our bones are shattered but it doesn’t matter ’cause we’re moving forward.”
It reminds me that the hardest battles are also the dirtiest and the reward is so very worth it.
“I’m not speakin’ under my breath, ’cause the harder you push the rougher I get. ‘Cause I’m not shaken when the earth starts quakin’. Got my own foundation with no hesitation.”
It’s been a few weeks now, but on my birthday weekend this year, my chorus won another Regional Championship and will be representing our Region at the International Competition in Las Vegas in the fall of 2017. So exciting. We won with a record breaking score, the highest ever achieved at our Region and tied for the 7th highest ever at any Region. Super exciting.
My love for the Barenaked Ladies has been spoken of frequently, but this particular song of theirs has been rattling around in my brain for a few days now. I guess you could say it is speaking to me right now for some reason.
It’s the perfect time of year, somewhere far away from here. I feel fine enough I guess, considering everything’s a mess. There’s a restaurant down the street where hungry people go to eat. I could walk but I’ll just drive, it’s colder than it looks outside.
It is been a favorite of mine, and I think I like it so much because it is a perfect blend of humor and poignancy. Something that BNL is very good at.
Pinch me, cause I’m still asleep. Please God, tell me that I’m still asleep.
For me, it’s about using humor to get you through a shitty time. And that is something I can relate to in a real way.
On an evening such as this, it’s hard to tell if I exist. If I packed the car and leave this town, who’d notice that I’m not around. I could hide out under there. I just made you say underwear.
I mean really. Let’s talk about how insignificant we feel and then make an underwear joke. These guys are genius. How can you not love them.