Turbulovert

80c9e7250cdb67a99efb70c657b53d86Everything you do right now ripples outward and affects everyone. Your posture can shine your heart or transmit anxiety. Your breath can radiate love or muddy the room in depression. Your glance can awaken joy. Your words can inspire freedom. Your every act can open hearts and minds.  ~ David Deida

 

As I continue through my year of finding myself and immense personal and emotional change, I find myself having conversations with friends about my journey, some of them on journeys of their own. I hear myself saying things, about myself, that I have never said before and I have come to realize that I am not the same person I was 365 days ago. This prompted me to retake the Myers-Briggs test and see if I got a different result. And boy did I. I’ve gone from an INFJ-A to an ENFJ-T. And I can tell.

The self confidence I’ve found over the last several months is liberating. I’m embracing my new found independence and happiness. And now I get to read all about my new personality, and I’m enjoying recognizing myself in it’s description. According to the website “16 Personalities” I’m a “Protagonist” with the “turbulent” variant. Which means that while I can be described as tolerant, charismatic, extroverted, and intuitive. The turbulence means that I also am self-conscious and worry too much.  Knowing that you can be an Extrovert and and Introvert at the same time is comforting … turns out I’m not totally bonkers after all.  Just a turbulent extrovert. A Turbulovert.

Also turns out that this new me may be better suited for continuing to work and succeed in Real Estate than I thought. I can most definitely see how this helped me when I worked in healthcare. Looking back, many of the things my patients and their families would thank me for, I see in these descriptors. Which helps confirm that this was in me all along and just needed something to happen to let it all out.

Maybe it’s time to embrace the person that seems to have been hidden inside of me all these years. I know I’ve seen peeks of her here and there, but the more I let down my walls and start living more authentically, the more I like the new me. I like how I feel about myself and my life (for the most part – I mean there are still some occasional shit storm moments – but I’m a work in progress, right?). I have had so many people reach out to me to tell me how they can see the change in me and they like it and appreciate it. When someone randomly writes you a note to thank you for “being authentic” and tell you they admire you for “saying what you think and not worrying about what others think,” it makes you feel like you made the right decision after all. Funny side note –

Also turns out my insatiable need to be loved and cared about is natural to me. As is my desire to constantly talk about my feelings and make sure everyone and everything is okay … which I’m sure drives people crazy … but I’m working on that one. After all, as I recently read, “the only thing wrong is being asked ‘what’s wrong’ too many times.” Oh, how I do love to be a pleaser.

So here is to embracing your personality. If you think you are holding yourself back from being the real you … let go and give it a try. It’s really a lot of fun.

 

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